Simply Scof...: Bittersweet Fourth of July

People say bittersweet all of the time... I've said it before... I'm sure I have really felt it a time or two before... this past fourth of july weekend was absolutely bittersweet. In the matter of a day I woke up living with my roommate/best friend and going to bed that night living with a BOY (whom I love very much)!

I knew this day was coming for awhile... I had imagined what it would feel like... I had evenblogged about it a few months ago. Really though, as anyone who has ever been in a situation like this before will tell you, there is no preparing. Days go by one after another... you look up and all of the sudden that BIG day is here... and then gone... and in some ways it almost feels like it just passed you by without you even in it. This was one of those days.

I knew Tansey was leaving... everything was going according to schedule... we got up and went to Starbucks for a little packing pick me up... and as we were driving there and back it just felt like any other Saturday (minus that it was 8 a.m. and we were awake and moving). We put her things in piece by piece and before I knew it we were taking pictures out in the front of "our" old apartment....

I remember catching myself thinking how did the time go so fast? A few hugs later... she was in her car and driving away. She was heading to Nashville. Watching one of your best friends drive away... bitter. Watching her begin the next chapter in her life, and being so ExCiTeD for her... so sweet.

So, Tansey was gone, and as I had planned it (in an effort to not get incredibly sad) I had ALOT to do. Organizing two year's worth of my stuff since college + Brenton's two year's worth of stuff = alot of work. Brenton went to get trash bags, and I laid on the floor in Tansey's empty room contemplating what had just happened and our plan of attack on the two years of double clutter. Having to clean two years of junk and not really having a weekend... bitter. Having a new beginning with somebody you love... sweet. All things summed up from this past fourth of July weekend: I'm going to MISS Tansey so much (I keep having to remind myself that she isn't just on vacation) and I couldn't be more happy for her... I'm a very proud best friend (love you Tans)! The other is that I am so excited for me and Brenton... this is HUGE! WE LIVE TOGETHER! This is a step that I feel so lucky to be able to take.... it is very exciting!